introspection's octopus

i am introspection's octopus
buried so deep within
the ocean of myself,
i couldn't tell
you where to dig for the heart
of me;
the light penetrates through
some days and sunshine
dances in my laughter,
but then there are days of deep darkness
where i rescind into my darkest
shadow,
and forget to utter a syllable;
i've always been strange
that'll never change -
i am an artist
we're wired differently than some,
and for them that's something to fear but i
think i have more to be afraid of
in them,
and so i hide behind my lovers
the words i have nurtured to
life in my soul.